I was waiting for a train in Grand Cupid Station
When I spotted your profile
You swept the platform right out from under my feet
Gave me no choice but to fall head over heels
The clock ticks too close to the hour
I missed my ride home
The clock strikes and I can hear my heartbeat
Reverberating off the cold, distant planets
I wonder if you can hear it
Echoing off of your physique
You swept me off my feet
I felt the floor vibrating underneath me
As the train passed me by
“Wait, stop!” I’m still here.
All this time we have been waiting
To catch the train but in reality
Our eyes were looking skyward
For the stars to notice us
Oh blinking star
Have the skies known all along?
All this time we were waiting for each other
When the crowd subsides I look for you
I see your profile again this time
But you’re in the window of the passing train
Your companion touches your collar
I guess the moon and stars might stray from each other
The passing train drowns my cries
You turn your head and meet my eyes
Could this be a sign?
All this time I was waiting for you and me
I don’t know you
But I know that your toxic tongue
has hurt more than one
I don’t know you
But I know that your words of hate
carry twice their weight
I wish I knew you but now all I know is that
Those you’ve marked as foe and not friend
Walk this life believing that no one sees them
All I know is that
Those you’ve painted with hostility
Should know that they don’t walk alone on their own two feet
“Do you know yourself?”
Hard amber eyes meet mine.
Lipstick smeared across full lips
asking me to be honest so don’t lie.
“It’s hard to know myself.”
Sometimes feelings of inadequacy surface in my mind
so I burn my bridges before I can cross them
and I forget why I tried.
“Why is it hard to know yourself?”
To be honest, I don’t know.
To be fully honest, I am alone
and on my own.
I don’t know.
A seed of doubt.
A seed of fear.
A seed of hate;
The end is near.
On nights like these
do you ever look into the sky?
You try to find me
but you’re not sure why.
Do you ever wonder why you look
or care where I hide?
Everywhere you look
I am concealed from your eye.
Dear confused soul
why do you scan the skies for me?
I have gone from this place
where I am, I am free.
Tonight you examine the starry night
with eyes like the hands of a careful physician.
But I will not be found
among the constellations.
Your determination makes me wonder
if you and I
if we ever knew each other
if once upon a time we said “Goodbye?”
I see you,
gazing, surveying, staring at the sky.
There is nothing here but a lost dream
that has come here to die.
Cast your curious eyes elsewhere, Stranger.
Don’t you examine the skies
for what is left of me.
Don’t you ask me why.
You are so much like a star
I coaxed from the sky
with hopes made of hydrogen and helium
burning too faintly in my mind for me to ever understand why.
Is it you that I want
for your beautiful mind
or is it something much simpler
something so shallow I don’t dare define?
I crave you too much
defeating all reason and logic
mining for gem stones the color of your irises
and seeking sunsets that remind me of your strange magic
But were you ever a star
or were you just on fire and falling, calling me pretty
racing through the atmosphere of my dangerous imagination
knocked from your orbit around the Milky Way galaxy
Were the two of us together
Simply two lost souls wondering who we were
two mature kids and childish adults trying to find our way
or maybe I was another mortal seeking your immortal cure
I might have been
just a pawn in your game of chess
glad to be the streak behind your meteorite
but I wish there could have been something more, I confess